A Man in
Need of a Woman
1
When I woke
up the next morning I got an awful sense of being trapped under the pressure of
this house and the work that needed doing to make it decently saleable.
How could I
ever hope to get it done within a reasonable time frame? It was impossible!
Exactly to
type, I’d wasted yet another day doing almost nothing and the evening to boot!
Why was I such a total loser? I’d accomplished hardly anything in my life. My
dressmaking business was something I enjoyed but it hadn’t gone anywhere – I
was such a ditherer – and now this was going to all go wrong as well.
I sighed, forcing
myself to get up and climb in the shower.
I was
tempted to go shopping again today. Maybe I could pick up some nice decorations
for the house and have a bit of fun looking at new clothes at the same time…
But I recognised a rationalisation when it poked me in the eye.
I sighed
again, coming out of the shower and wrapping myself in a towel, twirling a
second towel around my hair. I sat at my mother’s old dressing table and stared
sullenly at my reflection, thinking of all the jobs that needed doing.
Then I
thought again about the ring.
What was
the worst that could happen? It had only been temporary as long as I wore it. I
could take it off at any time. It was just exactly the same as hiring in a
workman for the day. And it might be really fun!
I smiled
mischievously, pulling the towel off my head and sweeping my hair back off my
face with my arm. I popped the bigger towel on the bed and quickly put on some
panties and a sports bra. I was really quite excited as I padded down the
stairs and went to the hall drawer.
The ring
was in there, exactly as I’d left it.
I wondered
if this wasn’t a really bad idea. But I had changed right back when I took it
off. There was absolutely no danger. And it would be wild to do it again –
without the fear this time.
I took up
the ring and looked at myself in the big hall mirror. I looked a tad bedraggled
because of the shower but still very feminine and quite sexy. Did I really want
to go through with this?
I told
myself it was just to get some work done on the house, but it had gone past
that now. I think I actually just wanted to try it on again for the thrill of
it – the experience.
I put it
over the very end of my finger. The sigils on the curved side glistened. I took
one more quick glance into my eyes in the mirror.
Then I
pushed it all the way on.
2
The second
transformation was a whole lot smoother.
The
sensation spreading from my finger to my heart was no longer what I would have
classified as pain. It was an intense ribboning, spreading up the vein of my
arm but I knew it wasn’t doing any damage. Pain was a warning. This was
something else.
The ring
itself went ice cold again but I wasn’t snatching at it in fear this time, I
held my hand out in front of me then slowly closed it into a fist. The cold
radiated out into my whole hand, throbbing its way into my forearm.
The first
light flash came, then the second. The house creaked around me as the pressure
in the room changed. The shuddering tightness started in my stomach, almost
like it was trying to suck me in, then real pain did flash up for a second., I
grimaced, screwing my eyes shut, then through my eyelids I saw the final flash
and it was over.
I was
breathing heavily, the sound of it deep and masculine.
My hands
were covering my face. I could feel the difference already, but when I lowered
them, I saw it.
I was the
man again.
I looked
exactly the same – same hair and eyes (that I now noticed were brown instead of
my usual blue); same chequered shirt and blue jeans; same brown boots.
I checked
myself over again, feeling the physical changes, checking that it was real.
It was. I
really was a man.
The shock
element wasn’t there this time. Instead I felt relaxed and comfortable. I took
the time to really investigate. I scrutinized my hands and square-cut nails. I
touched and prodded my face, stroking the stubble, tracing the contour of my
heavy brow and cheekbones. I fingered my short hair, marveling at it. I hadn’t
had short hair ever – except for a brief and disappointing experiment when I
was twenty two. I was always so feminine, but not anymore – not at all. There
was absolutely nothing feminine about my appearance now.
I frowned.
Who was I now? Had I turned into a specific someone else. Did this man really
exist somewhere? Had he… Had he turned into me?
I shrugged.
I had no idea. I wondered if this was just who I would have been if I’d been
born a man. There was a very vague similarity to my own looks – to my dad’s in
my new face. Maybe that was it. I didn’t have a clue.
I
considered unbuttoning the shirt and taking a peak. Did I dare?
I glanced
round to see if there was a sight line into the hall from outside. There wasn’t
but I felt weird doing it there. I walked through to the lounge instead,
starting work on the buttons.
There was
curly fair hair on my broad muscular chest, the skin tanned a golden brown. I
slipped one rough hand in and stroked my chest, feeling very strange. Obviously
my breasts weren’t there anymore, which was odd enough, but it was an entirely
different sensation from inside and out.
This man
I’d become wasn’t the usual type of man I ended up with – that tended to be
skinny arty types – but it was still a very well built muscular and attractive
man. I was groping that man’s chest, even though it was mine. It was just…
weird. I stopped doing it.
But I was
still curious.
I
unbuttoned the shirt the rest of the way and opened it wide, dropping it off my
shoulders and laying it on the sofa.
It really
was incredible.
My torso
was like the trunk of a tree. I was carrying a lot of weight but it was hard
and taut. I felt so powerful. I’d been a slight woman my whole life, not even
particularly athletic. Now, I was suddenly this masculine powerhouse. It was
like nothing I’d ever experienced.
My jeans
and boots were all I had left on and the mystery of what lay tucked away in
there was suddenly the only thing I could think of.
I’d been
with men in my time; more than a couple and less than a lot. I’d seen a good
share of penises in that time. I’d always found them kind of absurd-looking;
such an unwieldy and vulnerable extension on an otherwise tough frame. But men
seemed to prize them highly – be almost obsessed with them occasionally.
Did I
really have one of my own now? Surely I must have. And as I thought about it I
got just the slightest sensation from down there that I wasn’t used to.
There was
the bulge. All I had to do was unbutton the front of my jeans and reach inside.
I reached
for the top button, hesitating, then I chuckled, screwing up my nose.
I wasn’t
quite ready for that yet. No way. Not yet. Later. Or not at all.
I reminded
myself I had work to do now. That was the condition of doing this. Change into
the man and then get some work done – push forward with the jobs that needed
doing.
This seemed
so easy. What was stopping me doing this every day until all the work was done
in record time?
I put the
shirt back on.
I felt
totally different but very comfortable. I would have imagined it feeling
utterly weird and uncomfortable. Instead I quite liked it.
“Hmmm.”
I shrugged.
What could be the harm?
I love the fact that the discomfort of the change is lessened. It reminds me of my second ever cigarette. the first one was awful I nearly threw up. the second was weird but not that bad. then it quickly became fun, until not doing it was uncomfortable. At this rate, how many days is it before returning to being Alison is the uncomfortable part? I can just picture it: "why bother taking the ring off. I'm just going to put it on in the morning anyways..." -John
ReplyDeleteHeh. You know me so well...
DeleteEmma
It is great to see you writing again. You have been missed. I am definitely looking forward to reading your work again. I have always liked the way you capture the social condition in your writing.
ReplyDeleteWhy thank you!
DeleteAnd now I'm back I'm here to stay!
(grins inanely)
Emma