KATHERINE
Katherine’s
landline handset was on the outside ledge of the kitchen window and when it
started to bleat it took four or five rings before she even registered it was
hers. That made her hurry to snatch it up, creaking her back as she got back up
to her feet from the kneeling pad she’d been using in front of her roses. For
all nine steps from the flowerbed to the back wall she knew that it was Dahlia,
finally, calling her back (it had, after all, been twenty one missed calls
now), but the number on the little grey screen wasn’t Dahlia’s mobile, nor was
it a local number. It had a London area code.
“Hello?”
“Katherine?”
Her brow
contracted towards what would have become a frown as she tried to recognise the
voice from that one spoken word, then it came to her. “Tommy? Is that you?”
“Yep. Sorry
to bother you.”
Tommy was
Dahlia’s agent and the jolt of quickening Katherine had felt at the belief that
Dahlia herself was calling was accelerated still further. Tommy had been in
regular contact back in the not too distant heyday of Dahlia’s modelling
career, but nowadays he didn’t tend to call. Especially in these troubling
times, Katherine’s first assumption was that it was bad news. The photo shoot
had been yesterday. Dahlia’s career was meant to be getting the bump it needed
to jump back onto the tracks and hurtle back toward prestige and stardom, but
with the current decline of her mental state and her overeating, it couldn’t
have gone well and Katherine feared the worst. With the morbidly pessimistic
route her worrying had carried her lately, if anything, she feared calamity.
The phrases
pounced out of her, one after another without a beat between them for
inhalation. “What’s wrong? Is Dahlia okay? What’s happened?”
Tommy
exhaled in a generous enough rush of air to carry the sound down the phone
line. “She’s okay as far as I know,” he said. “I mean, she drove off okay
yesterday after the... Well, we didn’t really have a photo shoot in the end.”
Katherine
allowed herself a little nod at the confirmation of her supposition. “What
happened?”
“It was a
disaster. She may have burned her boats, at least with that magazine. It would
have been better if she didn’t turn up at all.”
“What did
she do?”
“Have you
seen her lately?”
Katherine
pictured her worn and desperate face again, shouting at her in the hospital
corridor. “Not for a few days.”
“Well she’s
really let herself go. It was shocking. She must have been at least a stone
heavier. Her clothes weren’t on straight. Her hair and make-up were... Well,
she looked terrible.”
“You know
about her brother, Steven? Did she tell you?”
Pause.
“Yeah. Yeah, she did. So I understand, you know? I do understand. She should
have cancelled. Nobody would have blamed her for that. She could have salvaged
something then – set up another shoot.”
“Tommy, I
don’t mean to be obtuse, but at this point, my lowest concern is whether Dahlia
can restart her modelling career. I think it was the increasing pressure of
that that got her in the state she’s in in the first place.”
“You’re
right. I’m sorry. I’m being a dick. It’s just instinct. My mouth blabs on about
the business without me even knowing. You’re right. And I’m just as concerned
about her as you are.”
Katherine
knew that couldn’t be true, but she said nothing. She was thinking.
“Tell me
what’s going on,” said Tommy. “What else do you know? I know losing her brother
must have been bad but Dahlia hasn’t been right for... well, since...”
“Since her
parents were killed.”
“Yeah. I
guess.” A moment of silence as the pieces slotted into place in his mind. “When
she... flipped.”
“Her
breakdown.”
“When she
went into hospital.”
“Yes.”
“Another
long silence.
“What
happened at the photo shoot?” asked Katherine.
“She... They
said she couldn’t do it. Weren’t too nice about the fact she’d put on weight.
It didn’t help that she was so late. And she looked... Her face... I talked to
her afterwards, at the car, and... She isn’t right. Is she?”
“No.”
Katherine regarded her roses. The wind was picking up, knocking them backward
and forwards.
“I tried to
talk to her; you know; offer some help; but she drove off. I’ve been trying to
call.”
“No answer.”
“No. Sent
some texts. No reply. I thought I’d call you.”
“She hasn’t
been in touch.”
“Have you
been up there?” asked Tommy. “I’d nip round if I was local but...”
The question
pinched Katherine between two great guilty claws, and suddenly the
justifications she’d had for not driving up to Summertop seemed vacuous and
poorly constructed. “No. She... Dahlia told me to stay away.”
“So she’s
all by herself?”
Again, the
justified pinch, sharp this time; cutting deeper. She thought of Melissa. She
thought of Melissa agreeing to help divert Dahlia from her descending path of
withdrawal from the outside world, smiling at Katherine as she promised to do
her best and then very obviously went inside the house to do the opposite.
“I’m not
sure,” said Katherine.
There was
another silence but it was all too clear what bristled within it: the stark
condemnation from Tommy that Katherine was wasting time in her garden while
Dahlia needed her and the anger Katherine levelled at herself for doing just
that.
“Don’t you
think that...”
“I have to
go up there. I shouldn’t have put it off.”
“Well if you
see her—”
“Sorry
Tommy. I have to go. Sorry. I have to go now.”
He said
something else but Katherine didn’t hear and she didn’t care what it was. She
ended the call and hurried inside, dropping the handset down so carelessly that
she didn’t even realise that she’d done it.
She found
her handbag, didn’t bother with her coat; checked the car keys were inside;
didn’t bother changing out of the grubby gardening clothes she was wearing;
didn’t even think to.
She ran out
the front door, not noticing that the lock didn’t fully engage and again, not
caring, and rushed to her car.
All she could
think about was Dahlia’s red-rimmed eyes; her desperate and tattered expression
in that hospital corridor; and the image she’d conjured in response to Tommy’s
description.
Her
instincts were working again, hurling up new worst case scenarios made material
from dread and pessimism. She had the sense that something momentous and awful
had happened already; that she had already missed the one chance she had to
divert it; but she also knew that she had to try. She had to get up there to
Summertop and try to divert whatever dreadful new turn of events must surely be
unravelling before it was too late.
Even if it
was already far too late and nothing could be done.